[Yamaguchi can only stay silent in response, for a painfully awkward moment. He doesn't know why Oikawa's words are affecting him so badly, when he's worked hard since elementary school to stop caring so much what people think, and focus on what makes him happy. To have some pride. But, it's almost possible to believe Oikawa really means what he's saying at this point, after having repeated it so many times without an ulterior motive Yamaguchi can find. Surely that kind of investment wouldn't be necessary, if this were some kind of joke? Or an act of boredom or pity? Oikawa did take all the trouble of inviting Yamaguchi here, and he was the one who reached out first...
Obviously, Yamaguchi can't reciprocate, he tells himself. It's hard to think while being stared at, but Yamaguchi still tries his best to sort his jumbled thoughts out. Oikawa's a guy; Yamaguchi doesn't like guys...well, yes, there's Tsukishima, but those feelings are so tangled up and confusing that Yamaguchi always thought his best friend was only some kind of Big Exception. Yamaguchi knows he definitely likes girls. And he honestly never thought his pursuing anyone would be much of an issue, as he'd never been desirable enough to stand a chance with a cute girl anyway that he liked. Even Yamaguchi can only get his hopes up so many times when a girl approaches him in class, only to ask stuff about Tsukishima. It's not fun to think about, but at least he knows what to think about it when it happens. Liking a girl from afar has never so confusing and embarrassing as he feels now, sitting across from Oikawa at the restaurant.
Speaking of which, Oikawa said something to him, didn't he? It's rude to ignore him. Yamaguchi knows he can't respond out loud, because if he tries to talk he's afraid his voice will choke up. Instead he just jerks his shoulders in a shrug, keeping his face firmly buried in his hands as he tries to think of some way out of this mess he's landed in. Could he actually feel that way about Oikawa Tooru of all people?]
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Obviously, Yamaguchi can't reciprocate, he tells himself. It's hard to think while being stared at, but Yamaguchi still tries his best to sort his jumbled thoughts out. Oikawa's a guy; Yamaguchi doesn't like guys...well, yes, there's Tsukishima, but those feelings are so tangled up and confusing that Yamaguchi always thought his best friend was only some kind of Big Exception. Yamaguchi knows he definitely likes girls. And he honestly never thought his pursuing anyone would be much of an issue, as he'd never been desirable enough to stand a chance with a cute girl anyway that he liked. Even Yamaguchi can only get his hopes up so many times when a girl approaches him in class, only to ask stuff about Tsukishima. It's not fun to think about, but at least he knows what to think about it when it happens. Liking a girl from afar has never so confusing and embarrassing as he feels now, sitting across from Oikawa at the restaurant.
Speaking of which, Oikawa said something to him, didn't he? It's rude to ignore him. Yamaguchi knows he can't respond out loud, because if he tries to talk he's afraid his voice will choke up. Instead he just jerks his shoulders in a shrug, keeping his face firmly buried in his hands as he tries to think of some way out of this mess he's landed in. Could he actually feel that way about Oikawa Tooru of all people?]